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me: yeah im really tough
me: [gets scared by text notifications when they’re too loud]
me: [easily startled when people tap me on the shoulder]
me: [cries under any sort of pressure ever]
me: [cries when anyone raises their voice higher than their average volume]
me: so tough
But I don’t want small talk. Text me, and without saying hello, tell me why you got so angry at your sister this morning. Tell me why you have a scar shaped like Europe on the left side of your neck. Send me paragraphs about the time you spent at your grandmother’s house that one summer. Call me when I’m half asleep and tell me why you believe in God. Tell me about the first time you saw your dad cry. Go on for hours about things that may not seem important because I promise that I’ll be hanging on to every word you say. Tell me everything. I don’t want someone who just talks about the weather.
But I don’t want small talk. Text me, and without saying hello, tell me why you got so angry at your sister this morning. Tell me why you have a scar shaped like Europe on the left side of your neck. Send me paragraphs about the time you spent at your grandmother’s house that one summer. Call me when I’m half asleep and tell me why you believe in God. Tell me about the first time you saw your dad cry. Go on for hours about things that may not seem important because I promise that I’ll be hanging on to every word you say. Tell me everything. I don’t want someone who just talks about the weather.
you messaged me to tell me that you still wear my shirt to bed
does it still smell like me?
or did that scent stop lingering a long time ago just like your feelings for me.
does it smell anything like heartbreak?
I guess then it’d still smell like me because that’s the only scent that’s been lingering off me since the day you left.
I know that I said that it would be an honor to have my heart broken by you.
I just never expected it to hurt this bad when you did.
there’s that old expression, “find what you love and let it kill you.”
I never really understood what that meant until I told you I loved you and you responded with “I’m sorry I did this to you.”
hatin